An Abstract Levity

Clinging to spaces nonexistent in time
Words rage through the cracks to create an exposure of vulnerability
Clashing with the existential reality of that which is placed on the sidewalk

Damaging reflections of introspect reach beyond the veil of morality
Glimpses of a kindred home wreak havoc on the soul
Desperate for the avenue that can free the monster of anxiety

Demanding values bring agony with wishful desire to release all hesitation
Extinguish doubt and fear of loneliness unwanted
To arrive in the comfort that was present amid the chaos



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9/14/16

Brown Paper Prints

As the daily battles continue,
it's in the insignificant things where peace is found.

Brown paper prints and dancing flailing arms.
Being a dragon-slaying badass and a potion's master.

Choosing to not feed the monster
by instead pointing toward memories and moments of nostalgic music,
and hands reaching for hanging flower buds.

Warm blankets surrounding chilly skin with snacks and swear words for company.
The process becomes clearer as the product starts to no longer matter.

Remember these things.
Remember who you are, what you stand for, what is allowed, and what is loved.

Raspberry, validation, theme, and companionship.
Kick some ass.


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4/24/16

A Mindless Meaning

Rushing through the wild I know I have nowhere to turn,

Reaching in all directions for not nothing but something, something unknown to me

Confusion erupts through the inward soul I have kept and I lash out at myself in spite,

Reducing me to what is now an unrecognizable being

Swarming around are whispers and accusations holding fast,

Leaving space for nothing but what I despise,

A cancer of my created world, a death upon my plate,

Deep in the center of my core I know it has to be over,

And I shred every last hope and memory to rid myself of anything more than it all.  

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11/8/15

Natural Justice

Shouting through to the empty walls, there is no recipient for the longing of souls connected,

Desperation for belonging buried what little flame there was, masking it behind a facade of smiles unreal with contempt and defeat

And the disappearance begins, beckoning and calling names to taunt panic and arise infliction 

Yet on its strongest day desperation leaves a flickered flame behind 

With a hopeful lone sound of precious rich timbre 

The velvet ringlets of affinity come in gracefully as a rescue

A soft voice and untired eyes readying to fill the void that is the extinguished flame

Familiarity of condition calls desperation to return and draws souls nearer 

As the worlds collide to a harmonizing unbalance, bringing dissonance and disruption to the very paths of the mundane,

A flame ignited and

A natural justice


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11/5/15

Restoration

the wind shakes loudly in my ear and leaves fly in spirals around my fingertips
new colors surround my retinas and hope envelops my skin
strings of a viola and sounds of passion embellish what my heart longs to say and what my soul yearns to hold again
the fields of peace surround me and I'm in the middle of it all with more heart than a body can handle,
from all directions voices of love take my breath away and my heart beats for what it could have someday,
eyes closed and heart open I see more now than I ever could before.
realization sinks deep to my toes as I see who you are and love genuinely what I see.
heavy and light at the same time, I don't know which way is which,
happily lost and forever found I am undivided and my thirst sincerely quenched
every uttered word from your lips shakes my soul to the bone and fractures every insecurity,
I watch as negativity dissipates into nothing and as depth gladly takes its place,
my arms held wide open and my smile spread far, I welcome every blessed moment of felicity,
tears stream down my face and fall to the ground, watering every part of who I am,
what used to be caverns of pain are now mountains of life and everything has become relevant
to a journey I can't wait to begin.
smiling through the blur I see undoubtedly now
that I belong nowhere else than in your arms


HGM
7-2013

Essence of Serenity

The world was crashing against my soul
Beating it down like the natural disaster my life truly was
Trudging in the mud for days on end until my feet became
so blistered and until my heart became
so numb
Trapped inside the bed that I unknowingly made for myself
In a life I never wanted to call my own

Yet now I sit, with the joy of a 3 year old running with the river
and the serenity of a heart sitting with a book below the mountains
Covered by the sound of the water and by the safety of the trees.

The world has stopped crashing and my soul can now rest
In the peace of the river flowing over the rocks telling me stories of comfort
And in the sun behind a single cloud with a heart full of passion
Telling me that it's ok now
And you can smile again.

So I do
And the blisters and numbness leave with one command
Inspiration exploding into truth
of a life I finally do get to call my own
With true hearts mending
and relationships growing into all it was supposed to be before.
With forgiving friends and loving family
And girls at a cabin creating for me fresh starts and new beginnings
For a journey far better than the last
The true essence of serenity.

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5-5-13
For my new beginning.

Sweet Felicity.

My heart longs for you
a soul whom I barely know
with a voice ringing nostalgically in my ears
as your handwriting imprints on my mind
like a permanent remembrance

One smile from you brightens my morning like no other jewel
beaming from across the world
or maybe
from across the planet

I imagine the trumpet sounds that come from your own hands
as if I've already memorized the notes by heart
I contemplate the scarce possibility that I
will ever get to taste those notes myself
or know your beautiful melody at all

Regardless of the strange world I live in
I see myself belonging in yours
yearning for your familiar soul so unknown to me
hidden behind your charming grin
and miraculous apple pie dreams

You define kindness
And you make sense

I in my chaotic riveting mess
find nothing but a pure sweetness in you
Your reserved walk
sweet smile
and encouraging disposition of a soul
Can you really blame me?
Take one look at me and I'm
falling to my feet for who you are

I am simply drawn to the fragrance of your spirit
as your eyes omit a sparkle of admiration
I know not what to do but
close my eyes
and smile
and wait
for the next inevitable second that you will unknowingly
sweep me off my feet

I wonder what swims in your mind sometimes
when you see me make a complete fool of myself

Your gaze rests softly in my eyes like
a long lost friend
connected by this mutual fondness undefined

Surely you don't study me as I study you
but acknowledging my words
you long to identify
catching my eye at unforeseen yet predictable moments
and I find myself wondering just how
purposeful
you are

Staircases and windowsills
locations of memories unforgotten
A bright joy

My heart breaks for what I can't give you
becoming aware that this sweet life I have in you
can't ever be more than just a dream
Sitting in silence I realize what I desire most
is only found in my own made up version
of us

Attempting to break through this denial all I see
is your sweet smile etched onto my heart
You have fingerprints all over it
and although it pains me
to admit you are too many worlds away
your smile is still somehow good enough
You don't even know my name but
you know my face
and that is good enough

Impossible strokes of midnight depict the times that exist only in my mind
and in our precious exchange of recognition
I anticipate those short seconds
those small inklings of true emotion that
I never knew I could feel
Without conversation I can already trace the sound of your voice
with my fingertips
as if you were born into them

Entirely unaware
you are my hero
when not even I knew that I needed one

The conditions of my world are so different than yours
but I know I'm alive
Crash collision course
Sing it to me
and let the ink spill off the pages overwhelmed
just how your joy makes me
and my tears will be covered

So sweet the sound of your melody
Time slowed fast paced blink smile like you do
I don't know you, but I want to


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